And So It Begins...

So now here I am writing my first official blog. Yay!! I have to be honest I was always wondering about this blog stuff. I guess you can all thank my best friend Crystal for getting me to start this. I love to write and I do so everyday. I love to talk and I definately do that everyday, lol. I guess this is just a combination of those things. Please expect lots of run-on sentences, typos and improper punctuation. That's just how I flow. I write like I talk. You can edit me later.

If you are wondering about what I am actually intending to write in this blog don't hold your breath..I have no clue either. I don't have a direction with it and I quite like it that way. It's kind of like my life. Now, I'm not saying that my life doesn't have direction but I'm saying that I am not in a mold that I feel I have to follow. Those of you who actually know me realize that. I have always just flowed and marched to the beat of my own beat box. I don't critcize those who do stick and stay with some mold or rather path layed out for them. I just believe that you only have one life that is not on a time clock so you better make the most of it for you. Do whatcha gotta do for you!!! I'd like to think that that is kind of my motto. I know that I will encourage my children (no not pregnant and no kids yet either) to follow their heart and mean it.

This all comes from the bubble I was bread to live in. Growing up I was part of an affluent upper-middle class African American family. I had access to everything in the world. I went to the best private schools. I lived in fancy homes in prestigious neighborhoods. I only hung around others that were in the same boat as me. Grateful and Thankful for all my opportunites but I found it incredibly BORING. It didn't excite me. It did not prepare me for the real world outside f that bubble. That world was full of phony, pretentious, gossipy, insecure and insincere people. From the adults all the way down to the kids. It was disgusting. In the real world you can't get by with that kind of nastiness and pompous attitude (unless of course that's what you like to hang around) and I just look at it as what's the point, who the hell do you think you are? Now I need to be clear...while it seems as though I turn my nose up at that world I have had some amazing times, and I have met and made some lasting friendships. But I think I've narrowed it down to who I can stomach and who can stomach me, lol!! As I said before I follow my own path and in that world you are automatically axed out or talked about for doing that. I have yet to finish college and I married a sanitation worker...Damn I must be the failure of Jack and Jill, God forgive me, lol!!

I am very happy thus far. I've stumbled and fallen but that is real life and I pick my big butt up and keep it moving, ya heard. Many of my former aquaintences who have the big jobs and all the education and only care about their so called "status" don't seem happy...I have a life that I love living (please note: I am not saying that if you have education and a good job that you can't be happy. I am a big advocate for education. I am simply writing about what I have seen with some of the people that I grew up with). I have a beautiful building that I own and reside in. I have an amazing husband who loves the hell out of me and I him. I don't have to go to bed alone. I won't be 40 and trying to figure out lifes next move...career vs. kids/husband (unless that's your choice of course). I have true, genuine friends that are in my life at all times not just when they're on top and I might be down or vice versa. It is no question that the things that matter to me are the riches in life not just being rich. I am a humane, generous, loving, caring, honest and loyal Diva. I live with integrity. I believe that at the end of the day you have to be able to look at yourself in the mirror and be proud of what you see. I am.....

The more I write this the more I think I realize where this blog might take me. I have always looked at writing as my therapy. It is my way of getting life's shit off my chest. I tend to come across very abrasive when I speak and judging by this blog maybe when I write too but it is what it is. I would hope that nobody would take offense as this is my blog expressing my opinions which everyone is entitled to.